Standing within both communities as I do, not only having been a victim of satanic ritual abuse and mind control when I was a child but also as a targeted individual who has experienced organized stalking and electronic harassment as an adult, I realize that these two groups couldn’t be more different. One thinks the other is paranoid while the other feels the other is crazy, and each side dismisses the other even though both are in the same boat when it comes to society as a whole dismissing our concerns. Knowing the true validity of each situation, it is my hopes to try and bring these two groups together and show that, despite our differences, the cause of our problems is the same culprit- and that is our power hungry government which is guilty of running rogue and doing whatever it wants to try and maintain and control this increasingly fascist regime.

Despite what people think, my satanic background was more about hedonistic ideation than it was conjuring up demons, and I often remark that I don’t once remember bringing Lucifer forth and having tea and conversations with him as a child. It was more about hegemonic domination than anything, and practicing an idealism that has a lot to do with philosophies of the new world order with regards to ruling and control. Yes, we practiced blood sacrifice, but as I explain in my book- it was believed that endorphins are released in the body of the sacrifice at the height of their suffering and fear that act like an aphrodisiac if consumed, and so it was more about “getting off” than it had to do with communing with any demons. Not that I believe that communing with the other side is impossible, because I know for certain that it is, but when considering the whole satanic aspect of our nation’s background- in conjunction with the whole MKUltra experiments and such, it was more about power and control than anything. That and fear.

With regards to the T.I. community- I am not sure why people would discredit the fact that our government- with the help of our CIA and FBI, would harass and terrorize those they would consider “political dissidents” when we have the background and history that we do concerning groups and factions being targeted and destroyed, like the situation in Waco, TX years ago. The validity and realism of our government owning sonic and microwave technology is well known, and so why people don’t consider that these weapons have become sophisticated enough to use on mass groups of individuals is beyond me. Contrary to some people’s perceptions, the commonality that I have found with most of the T.I.s that I have been in contact with is that many, if not most, are outspoken proponents of our nations governmental policies, and not only are they intelligent, they are often articulate and can more than adequately explain in sensible and rational terms what is being done to them. I consider myself to be one of those people I am speaking about.

Both of these factions, the T.I community as well as the SRA/mind control community; have been deemed to be conspiracy theories only offered by the crazy, and yet we are all beginning to realize that when it comes to conspiracies, often when there is smoke there is also fire, as we have seen with the Catholic Church and Penn State conspiracies, (just to name a couple). Having experienced both sides of the fence, I understand personally how valid the concerns are being presented by BOTH groups, and it is my hope to bring both groups together to help educate the other on what we have gone through- as it has ALSO been my experience that we are fighting the same foe.

Asked what we can do to bring us together, I have decided that the best way to start is by hosting a Talkshoe Internet Radio Program on Sunday, January 20th 2012 at 4 PM EST. (The toll free phone number is 724-444-7444 and the access code to join the call is 123756#). I am designing this call so that members of both the SRA community and the T.I. community can learn about each other in a way that hopefully enables us to come together and begin to work together to uncover these injustices that have transpired with all of us. Educating each other in order that we may understand each other better is imperative in my opinion, and there is no better time to join together than now to expose all of these matters so that we may prevent such things from happening to others, not just in America but all around the world.

So please join me- Sunday, January 20th, 2012 at 4 PM as we try to grapple this path together, and perhaps we will find some of the answers we are looking for together as one voice!

With all the recent attention in the world on this fascination mankind has with raping each other, I feel compelled this morning to speak about what it is like living in the aftermath of rape. Having been raped so many times as a child, not only by my father and his third wife but also by the men they sold me and my siblings too- that it is hard to distinguish who I really am and what is a product of the trauma that I endured as a child, as it has all seemed to meld together and become one indistinguishable mash of emotion.

The hardest part, I think, has been the shame and degradation that I have suffered as a product of my abuse. Knowing that I am not to blame and FEELING that I am not to blame is often two very different entities, and often there has been a part of me that has wondered what I did to suffer such indignation. Regarded as little more than a piece of meat, the rage that I have felt over my objectification has often dictated my emotional reactions, not just with others- which have been intense to say the least, but more importantly, with regards to myself. The self-hatred that I have for myself has been the worst residual aspect of my abuse, and I have spent much of my life trying to deal with the rage I have against myself.

Physically, I was left unharmed. Emotionally and spiritually- the devastation could not have been worse. My abuse isolated me mentally in such a way that I found myself completely cut off from my fellow human beings, I guess because I have never been able to overcome my fears of being hurt. Convinced that that there is something inherently wrong with me, reaching out and embracing anyone or anything has been hard for me throughout my life- and sometimes, as a result, I feel like I am just existing rather than actually living. Turning to God was oftentimes impossible- as the anger that I felt with my maker added to the separation I felt with my fellow man, convalescing into a type of spiritual coma that often made me feel like a deer in headlights. Wanting to just fade and disappear, but unable to escape God’s presence, I have spent a large part of my life secretly feeling like I wanted to implode , completely oblivious to understanding why I was treated in such ways and wanting to rage because of it.

For years, I was addicted to taking six and seven showers or more a day- not because I enjoyed them but rather because I never felt clean. Through therapy, I have worked though this- but the residual effects of my abuse have created and maintained problems in my life with regards to love and sex. Some blend the two together, I personally went the opposite way and am unable to see the two as intertwined, and thus, I have had and still have issues with expressing physical affection with those that I love. Sex, for me, has always been and still remains to feel dirty to me, and I have rarely ever come away from my sexual experiences feeling anything more than emptiness. Sad, I realize, but as hard as I have tried to deal with it in therapy, it still remains to be true today and it is due to the fact that I was raped repeatedly; which is why I feel rape is wrong.

One last thing- rape not only destroys the victim, but it also affects the rapists- as each act of aggression drains the humanity of the perpetrator and reinforces the fact that they are acting like nothing more than animals; filthy monkeys who are looking to get off. Often abuse survivors themselves, anyone who commits rape KNOWS what they are doing- thus they are guilty of consciously transferring all of the self-loathing they feel for themselves into another and, I believe, will be held accountable accordingly. However, those who sit complacently by and allow such things to happen, have even more accountability in my opinion, and may even be judged harsher than the rapist themselves. Rape won’t stop until we, as a society, stop allowing the promotion of such things as being considered just a natural fact of life. Until we collectively stand and MAKE THE DIFFERENCE, it is never going to get any better- and as a rape victim, it is this continued apathy that is perhaps the hardest thing for me to deal with emotionally on a daily basis. I just wish more people would be willing to “put their actions where their mouths are” and help to bring this deplorable, demeaning, and devastating practice to an end.

There is a rape case in Ohio being played out in the media and courts, and I wanted to take a moment to comment on the people who just hung out and watched as this event took place. Making jokes, tweeting about an attack rather than involving themselves in order to stop it, it is a sad indication as to where we are as a society when it concerns moral aptitude and the initiative to do right in the face of a wrong, and I wonder if this could be indicative of events yet to come.

Statistics have shown that we are not safer in groups, and in fact, when presented in such a way- there is a mob mentality that forms against the victim many times. The study that I read was about a man who was beating a woman up on a bridge in New York City while a group of bystanders just stood and watched. He ended up throwing the woman off the bridge and killing her while people just gawked at the situation, and it was concluded that unless someone is brave enough to go against the group and stand up for the victim, that generally it ends just like what we have seen in Ohio. Taken to the extreme, this attack in Ohio became nothing more than a joke, fodder for endless tweets of gossip and sick humor as it hit the social network, exemplifying how this country treats not only victims, but women in general.

If our media has shown us anything, it is that if we are unlucky enough to become stranded on an island with other people, our only hope is to run to the other side or start swimming, as eventually it will all turn until a “Lord of the Flies” situation occurs. Unfortunately group dynamics are such that a scapegoat is not only acceptable- it is desirable, thus our society has become one full of intolerance and bullying- esp. among our children, who have either become victims of the bullies, or worse, the bullies themselves. Promoting a survival of the fittest, we have seemingly embraced a strange form of social Darwinism that not only allows bad behavior against our fellow humans, but encourages it- and anyone unlucky enough to find themselves a victim is often considered the only one to blame for their situation. It is this philosophy that is being promoted by our media that is helping events such as what happened in Ohio to occur, and though we can all be shocked at the soullessness that was shown at that party, we only have ourselves to blame.

We all need to stand up and bring back some sort of respect for life and each other or I fear our society is going to keep declining. Moral imperatives must be brought back to the forefront and taught to our children, and a love for each other should be promoted, rather than this frustrated sense of rage that is encouraging us to attack each other in new and improved ways. Rape must become a thing of the past, let alone the apathy that surrounded this specific case in Ohio and others like it in the world. We MUST get a renewed sense of our own humanity or we are going to sink into dark ages the likes of which I doubt any of us can imagine. We have the power to change our course- but first we must all GET INVOLVED. Forget fear, forget doubt- when you see an injustice- shine a light on it, and always keep in mind that we are our brother’s keeper. That means when you see someone getting abused or hurt, don’t just sit and watch- but rather, get off your behind and get involved. I realize this is a novel idea, but as a society we really do need to start helping the victim- and supporting each other rather than justifying bad behavior through apathy and disconnect.

Anyway- that is my rant for this morning.

http://www.cnn.com/2013/01/04/justice/ohio-rape-online-video/index.html?hpt=hp_t2

I have had a very dear Christian friend of mine tell me that she has grown weary with what she has viewed as repeated attacks on her faith, and expressed her disappointment with me that I am generally part of those attacks. Although I did not like the thought that I had dissed my friends faith, I had to admit that she was right, and that I do have contentions with regards to the Christian religion, but it is neither my desire nor my intention to lead people away from something that they hold fundamental to their existence. No, rather it is my hope that I am able to express where I am coming from with my dissension so that I myself may better understand why I stand against the religious dogma that has been such a contention in my life.

Let me make clear first off that I am not, nor will I really ever, be able to call myself a Christian, in that I do not believe that Jesus Christ is coming back to save us from that which we have wrought upon ourselves. I believe that this has been religious propaganda, instrumented by the Church and manipulated by our media and government officials, in order to keep the masses complacent and controlled. Jesus himself taught that the kingdom of Heaven was within, and so- it is my conviction that God is not returning to us, but rather, we are going to be brought back to God. This whole desire for immortality is off base, and on this side, ALL experiences must eventually end, dictating that death is natural and inevitable. However, I also believe that death is an illusion, in that we are all part of God, and God never dies, thus the fundamental part of us that offers us life survives.

It is my opinion, from what I have personally experienced, that most Christian churches have become this narcissistic death cult, excusing their apathy towards life and their fellow man with a self-righteous conviction that they are saved and about to be delivered, thus negating any compulsion to stand up and fix the world around us. A world I believe, if we all would work together, is quite capable of being fixed! It is one thing to believe in a hero such as Jesus Christ saving the day, but if life has taught me anything it is that manifestation takes focus and work, and most of time- we are on our own. Some might say that I am being pessimistic, maybe even blasphemous, but I believe that God works through us as us to help us and it is our duty to listen and rise to the call- (which has been sounding for quite some time by the way), and stop worrying about our own personal redemption. It is our responsibility to change the world around us, a world which, if you adhere to the Bible, it was written that we all were given charge over.

Surprisingly enough, I love the Bible, and have read it often throughout my life. Being raised to believe that I was the antichrist- I read and researched everything I could to save me from my fate, and it has been my experience that the lessons that Jesus taught throughout his life are straight on- and fundamental to living a full and happy life. However, I also believe that the Bible has been manipulated so much and for so long that it is hard to know what to trust and what not to trust, which means that to find the real truth for the meaning of our lives, we all must look within ourselves to find the answers as to how God and Heaven want each of us as individuals to change the world around us. It is only through us looking within that we will be able to become the change we wish to see in the world.

Prayer, meditation, faith- all of these are tools that enable us to connect to the higher part of ourselves, helping us to manifest the life that each one of us are living, and any way that helps with that- be it Christianity, Judaism, Muslim, Buddhist, whatever- it is embracing and expressing the love that Heaven has for all of us with not only the ones we love, but also directing that love outward and into the world around us that is instrumental. We all need each other, and it is only through this process do I believe that the world will finally come together. Our humanity MUST catch up with our technology- or we are doomed to rot in this spiritual crisis that is bringing everything to a halt. In every face you see, you see the face of God- this is true for us all, and only when we begin to fully understand this concept will we begin to see significant change in the world .

Perhaps I am wrong, and Jesus Christ’s appointment with humanity is right around the corner, but I will tell you that the rich Satanists that I grew up with as a child didn’t believe it, and in many ways were counting on this whole belief to make the masses compliant and complicit with the inevitable take over by the elite as the population boomed and resources dwindled. Men who would rather burn the world down rather than ever lose control over it, it is simple logic that they would have made provisions to prevent this from happening, and as we are watching them implement their plans as they strip more and more rights away from American civilians, it is frustrating watching society accepting and allowing such things seemingly under the spell of their convictions that some magical moment will materialize and save us from this treasonous turn of events towards complete fascism. For those who would ask “what would Jesus do?”- I personally think that he would get involved and expect us all to do the same, but that is just me.

Personally, I think that we MUST stop fighting each other as our division only makes us more susceptible to the propaganda of fear and hate that has helped make our society the volatile and unstable experience that it has become. All of this didn’t just occur by accident, but rather was instrumented by the .25 of the 1% who continuously help themselves to a bounteous 27% of the yearly earned income while pitting us against each other over the 1% that we offer the poor. Owning the media, the government, and every key aspect of society, they promote so much dissension in my opinion, that it is hard not to become desensitized and apathetic to all of it- but then that is the whole point of this global game.

Think about it- Satan offered Jesus the world, and that wouldn’t have been possible had it not been his to offer, so it is no surprise that our worlds governments are being run by power hungry hedonistic snakes who worship nepotism to the highest degree, who have infected our psyches to want to be like the elite, rather than despise them for the abominations that they have become. Abominations against society, against man, and against God- their hypocrisy of entitlement has jaded the psyche of mankind with their lust for money, power, and prestige- who, in turn, have turned from God and have basically embraced the golden cow, be it more symbolically rather than with conscious intent. Having been duped for generations now, now is time for us to all wake from our slumber and rise up in an attempt to fix the world that has been so intentionally manipulated by our elite leaders.

The answer does not lie within attacking and changing each other, setting ourselves above each other in the process- but rather it is our systems that need to be fixed and changed. If indeed that they have been under the influence of the devil- then perhaps it is time to evolve and bring a stronger and more prevalent sense of human compassion to the table, and the only way to do that is to come together and find the humanity within ourselves, helping each other while leaving judgment and condemnation to God. And if I am wrong, and Jesus does come back, at least we will all be busy and ahead of the game. I mean, what can it hurt?

In consideration of the new year, I have once again decided to give away the Kindle version of Rabbit Hole- A Satanic Ritual Abuse Survivor’s Story for any of you who would like to read it.

December 31st, 2012

My Dearest Micheal,

I was asked recently if I believed if you believed in the rituals and history that you have conjuring up all the chaos that you do, and I realized that this question, although innocent- is completely off mark. Although we both know that you believe full heartedly in the things that you do, the question was never about what you believed, but what I myself believed. If I remember correctly- you are pretty voracious- as are your friends, in letting people know what you think and why, and it was my experience that you could not have cared less for anything I thought or felt. The game, when I was a child, was all about you and your friends. However, things change, and now- as they say- the ball is in my court.

Funny, I truly believe that some of you are finally discovering how little your money and power really mean in the scheme of things, and as you all start discovering your own mortality- as, again, many of you are- you will, I hope, begin to realize that this game that has been so profitable throughout all of your lives has leveled some serious consequences coming your way- and no money, calls to friends, nor any ritual or other hocus pocus is going to save you from that which you all have wrought.

Michael- I have been accused by some of practicing dark magic considering the stuff that I am guilty of doing, but I disagree. Let me remind you that you all BOUND YOURSELVES TO ME AS A CHILD, and whether anyone else wants to believe that or not is completely beside the point- as I, as well as yourself, know this to be true. Never having forgotten the things that you taught me as a child, I have been able to open myself further, and thus have transformed myself from the host you believed me to be, into a doorway that I truly believe allows all of heaven to work through me. In turn, the only thing that I have asked is that all of you are made to suffer now, and in the end- you all WILL be claimed. Having the chance to come clean- and being warned to do so- I personally believe that it will rain down skittles before any of you repent, and so am pretty content that in the end- you will all suffer the wrath of God.

Let’s play a game- shall we? You will remember this one I’m sure. You go ahead and pray to your god, and ask him to save you from the thrashing that my God is about to deliver. Ask him to protect all of you as you all begin to start dying from the inside out. Ask him to save you from losing all that you hold dear, as your empires start to decline before your eyes, and ask him to stop the energy that you fed from returning to you and see how that works for you. More than that- ask him to give you all your lives back. See how that works for you. You are all about to be claimed- and there is nothing and no one who can prevent it. The kingdom of Heaven is within- and it is within which dwells your enemy. Tell me, what weapons of destruction, or psych ops trick do you have that you think is going to solve your sticky wicket and save your soul? Cause my guess is- you have nothing to save you from that which is coming for you. Or should I say who? Cause let me assure you- “she who sleeps within the darkness” is fully awake and now you will all have exactly what you have spent a lifetime aspiring for- all eyes of Heaven are on all of you.

Congratulations.

No matter what happens with any investigation into my family or events here in Omaha, I am content that this is the eventual result for all of you who are involved, and so all the rest of it is just cream on the top. I must thank you Michael for helping me to become as aware as I am to the REAL world, and I hope to repay the favor in kind over and over and over on the other side. If it not be for you- none of this would have been possible- so thanks for everything.

Oh- and Happy New Year!

Sincerely,

David Shurter

David, can I ask you a question? I know you’ve had associations with Michael Aquino, and I’ve read quite a bit of his writings on xeper.org, and it’s clear that he does, indeed, believe in other wordly satanic beings (I read where he wrote he invoked satan himself for advice during the Church of Satan’s breakdown). So, from what you’ve seen, does he actually believe in these beings (and/or are these beings actually using him as a vessel) or is that just what he wants the public to believe? These satanic cults that abuse/murder/sell children…there is most definitely a satanic aspect, but do these guys really believe they’re raising demons/whatever, or what’s your take on it? Thanks.

Just for the record, yes, I believe that these people, esp. Michael Aquino- believe in what they are doing… but here was a response from one of my favorite posters…

decide for yourself – David will tell you yes, others will say no…….liars like John DeCamp will have you believe that Satanic ritual is only a tool used in traumatic dissociative conditioning of children……………

I personally believe that whether there is a Satan or not, most of these people truly believe….they also believe (or have knowledge of) in power relating to lunar cycles, solar and calendar dates, numbers, geometry, human sacrifice, and so on and so forth

As far as the post – David, the guy who made these comments is completely confused. He is calling your current belief set an offshoot of Scientology, when it was in fact the cult you were a child victim of that had far more to do with Scientology. Michael Aquino claimed to have been created during a Hubbard/Parsons “working”….a term I would be thrilled if you could elaborate on. As soon as we get together to do another show, we absolutely have to spend a few minutes on Scientology!

Scientology is merely one branch of the occult network, relating largely to the control of celebrity MK victims/cult members……….As far as the Process Church – this is very important – Charles Manson was both a Processian and a Scientologist, and is only two degrees removed from your own story

The Process Church was also tied to Offutt Air Force Base

Then I saw this on the OCCK website- from the same guy who claimed I was involved with Scientology. “Withgreatrespect” is the name he goes under on this account, (one of them anyway), and I would like to deal with what he said last night on the site. This was in response to my response when he suggested he was about to be attacked for his beliefs.

If you rock someone’s boat, expect to get shat upon.

I expect it, and I know how to handle it. Whereas, your response is to run amok for several YEARS accusing everyone from your family members to police agencies to presidential candidates of conspiring to ‘silence’ you and destroy your life.

Another difference between us, is that unlike you I have made no preposterous and blatantly false claims about my life history & supposed personal involvement in the crimes of others.

It makes me wonder why this guy thinks that Franklin Credit and the events that went around Omaha, that are spoken about not just by me but by many others, is specifically “rocking” his “boat”. Most would just assume this guy is crazy- but it has been my experience that he is not crazy- but rather working diligently to protect the other side.

In defense, I have also not made any “preposterous and blatantly false claims about my life history and supposed personal involvement in the crimes of others.” What I have said about my history is true. But then this is also the guy who told me that I am a Scientologist without even ever meeting or speaking with me- so take it for what it is worth. Again- there is this general need to attack what I have said without ever going into specifics of what is specifically wrong with the details I have related. I have shown this to be common on my blog, and will continue to do so.

http://www.scribd.com/doc/36363051/Dave-McGowan-Programmed-to-Kill

http://www.davesweb.cnchost.com/nwsltr93.html

David Shurter has been involved with a cult – but not a satanic pedophile cannibal cult as he has claimed.

The type of cult Shurter has been involved with is known as a “psychotherapy cult”. Psychotherapy cults commonly misuse and abuse genuine therapeutic techniques, in combination with quack pseudoscience ‘therapies’, which instill and promote delusional beliefs among their members.

Scientology has been the most successful of these psychotherapy cults. It has generated numerous off-shoots, some of which remain supportive of and on good terms with the original organization, while others develop a mutually hostile relationship with The Church of Scientology. An example of the latter – the very bizarre and short-lived organization known as The Process.

David doesn’t know this, and won’t believe me of course, but the cult he has been involved with is also a Scientology offshoot. In fact, the concept of “trauma based mind control” is an invention of Scientology founder L Ron Hubbard.

I can provide proof of this, and links that will allow Shurter to explore what I’ve said for himself, but he won’t be able to ‘hear’ me. At this point, he has so much invested in his fraudulent Satanic Abuse Victim persona that he will reflexively reject any information that comes to him from someone who has exposed his fraudulence. Nevertheless, here it is:

“During the continual process of Dianetics research, both as an auditor and as an observer of other auditors, Mr. Hubbard naturally came into contact with a wide variety of cases. And, it was inevitable that these would include those who had been in the hands of psychiatrists closely allied to the intelligence community.
Thus it came about, fully twenty-five years before the facts were made public by Congress, that Mr. Hubbard was the first to announce and decry government mind manipulation programs. Eventually, of course, these and other revelations of Central Intelligence Agency criminality would entirely reshape public perception of this group of spies from a patriotic and somewhat glamorous image to that of a rogue agency of dirty tricksters, with its own citizens as victims.
The vehicle was his 1951 book Science of Survival, and in it he described in no uncertain terms the combined use of pain, drugs and hypnosis as a behavioral modification technique of the worst kind. It was, he said, so extensively used in espionage work, it was long past the time people should have become alarmed about it. It had taken Dianetic auditing to discover the widespread existence of these brainwashing techniques, and, he added, the only saving grace was that Dianetics could undo their effects”.

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withgreatrespect- you don’t know anything about my abuse- and unless scientologists kill kids, I doubt it was any influence by Hubbard’s book Dianetics that had anything to do with my abuse.

You constantly tell me that I am wrong- and now you are attacking my therapy and trying to assert facts about something you either have no idea about, or are on the other side trying to pump disinfo up people’s butts.

What happened here was a child, drug, and gun trafficking ring. It had NOTHING to do with religion, and in fact the crap that was going on was basically to scare people, as far as I can tell.

However- I do want to use what you just posted on here on my blog. I find it interesting- and helpful to list the arguments against me. This one rates up there as pretty stupid. Are you expecting payment for your amateur therapy lesson? I hope not

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I’m talking about the cult you are associated with RIGHT NOW, David – not during your childhood. Wake up, man!

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withgreatrespect- your arguments are too dumb to be dealt with. I am not- nor have I ever been associated with scientology- and in fact my therapist is a Jungian. However, since my life is primarily sewing and writing- what cult are you referring too? Never mind- this argument is stupid.

Although I read Dianetics years ago, I am not now nor have I ever been involved with Scientology. My therapist is not a Scientologist, nor has she ever done any kind of regression therapy with me. My memories are not, nor were they ever, truly ever repressed in the traditional way. Withgreatrespect and I have had arguments before- and they are convinced- or at least he/she is doing their best to try and convince others that my abuse in Omaha didn’t exist, or that is different than what I am claiming. This is the newest argument against me. Again- it is a fraudulent argument.