“Your story, it’s not boring or ordinary. We just get the one life you know- just one- and you can’t live someone else’s or think that it is more important because it is more dramatic. What happens matters, maybe only to us- but it matters. I just wanted you to know that.”

Lines from the movie Ghost Town

It is my opinion is that we, as a whole, have lost the respect for the sanctity of life, and what is needed is a re awakening of the love we should have for each other and the world around us. It seems like we have lost our way- and that, even though the Earth keeps spinning, most of us are living our lives just going through the motions- stuck in the muck of our daily lives. I am just as guilty of this as anyone else- and I just wanted to say a bit about it.

The world seems increasingly darker day after day- and it seems to me that we, as a race of humans, have lost the ability to believe that any of us can make a difference to change that. I know I certainly have my doubts and I often find it easier to lose myself in chaos and drama of “real time” rather than deal with the feelings of helplessness that occurs when I look around me. I also don’t think I am alone in doing this.

Life has become so difficult that most of our noses are pressed to the grindstone so that we don’t loose what we have worked to hard to achieve. The first three major questions that come from every stranger that you meet are 1.) What’s your name, 2.) Where do you live, and 3.) What do you do for a living. Being disabled and never being able to keep a job, it was the third question that kept me from interacting within the populous. Meeting people and having this question asked always left me feeling like less of a human being, and I never knew what to say- feeling compelled to answer but having nothing to offer that people found impressive. I would argue that it isn’t what you do but how you do it but this usually fell upon deaf ears.

It is this compulsion to judge others that has, in my opinion, distanced us from each other. Finding me insignificant, even the most polite person usually ended the conversation and moved on when I was asked what I do for a living and I began to wonder if this is indicative to why we feel so separate from each other. The fact that we make conclusions in our head about each other within the context of three questions is undeniable, but could it be that it is this is why so many of us have havoc around us? Instead of finding our individual lives interesting, as everyone has a story, we have insulated ourselves to the point that our interactions are based on three questions. However, I think that the homeless person on the street is just as interesting, if not more so, that a corporate CEO making six or seven figures.

Important lessons can be learned from those we, as a society, have deemed worthless. To prevent ourselves from living the same fate, it makes more sense to me that we can learn more from the person who experienced it than we can from those who never have. Everyone has something relevant that has happened in their lives- and in the context of the human dialogue- it is all important, even if it is only to us. We are here, in my opinion, to love each other and help each other- as life only seems to matter when we are doing just that. Somewhere we lost the sanctity we used to have for life and it is this that we need to re establish within ourselves if we are going to find a way out of the darkness we are experiencing in the world.

It matters who each of us are. Each one of our lives matter. It makes no difference what color we are, or what religion we practice, or how profitable our lives are or aren’t, EVERY ONE of us matters. As a whole, we need to come back to the realization that we are all together on this life and on this planet and that our actions have consequences. We need to honestly look at how we are treating each other and ascertain if our actions have more implications than we believe and come back to the point where we are able to love and respect each other as a whole. If we don’t come together soon- what with the drastic changes that occurring in the world around us- it is my opinion that we might not make it. We ALL NEED EACH OTHER, and there is not one of us who will survive alone.

In my view, what we need is to start coming together and start trusting and appreciating the sanctity of respect that we have, not only for life, but for each other as well. And that is my rant for today…

http://politicalgates.blogspot.com/2011/12/children-under-attack-culture-of.html

Children Under Attack: A Culture of Unpunished Exploitation 1/2

This is an incredibly good article that was sent to me via my blog today and I wanted to give people a chance to read it. However- I want to put in a few comments of my own.

It is no secret that I do not trust Paul Bonnaci. Having dealt with him personally on a website called Franklinfiles, it is my opinion that he is a disinfo agent who was sent to Owen in order to keep people from believing her. It is interesting that many people came forward ended up dead- like Troy Boner- but he has not. It could be argued that I haven’t either- but I didn’t come forward till after Alan Baer’s death. It was Alan who helped all the other “Baer boys” deaths, like CB Rogers.

I also don’t believe Nick Bryant- who is running around like he is an expert on Franklin. However- his book is just a rehash of John DeCamp’s book- and offers NO NEW INFO. Blatantly absent from his rendition are facts like the Old Market- the Hollywood bar, which was filming snuff films in the basement that was set up like a dungeon, the Stagedoor, where Sam Soda was manager (he was supposedly involved with the Johnny Gosch case), Hummel Park- where the satanic ritual abuse was happening along with Forest Lawn cemetery- which was cremating the remains. I have also heard him speak at a SMART conference where he stated that no MKUltra training was going on at Offet Air Force Base in Bellevue. I also heard him claim that only 2000 children were involved- and in my experience- a lot more than that were actually involved. In a phone conversation that I had with Bryant- I made him cry when I asked about all of this- and all he kept saying is that he was a “good man”. However- I neither trust nor like this individual. His account of Franklin and what was actually happening is lacking to say the very least- and the fact that he is going around claiming that he is an expert is suspect to me.

With that said- I do believe that this article is pretty well written and is factual. Therefore I wish to put it on my blog to offer it to those of you who would be interested in it.

I know that my last article sounds like some sort of conspiracy- but here are some examples of events once thought as conspiracies that have later proven true.

http://realitieswatch.com/10-conspiracies-no-longer-theories-proven-true/#sthash.nBYjMRc9%0A%0AHere+are+ten+American+conspiracies+that+are+no+longer+theories,+but+proven+true,+no+matter+how+absurdly+unbelievable+you+may+find+them.%0A%0ASent+using+ShareThis

There are some who make a living by finding survivors, such as this author, and doing their best to discredit them. I have been working in the survivor community now for over a decade and have come across this group over and over. They dedicate themselves to trying to trash survivors in order to prevent another “witch hunt” by presenting circular arguments and personal attacks – like what can be seen in here. They use anonymous screen names and use big words to sound like more than what they are but this method of attack has been common FOR ALL survivors that tell their stories. I DO have a blog, and I AM talking about this article. I have been on numerous radio shows, have spoken nationally, and as Briget shows, am pretty well known. simply put – I do my best, knowing what I do – to defend survivors

http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2015/01/03/me-me-me-and-my-therapist/?_r=0

In the comments lay another well known argument that has been used for three decades from the people who support the False Memory Foundation- and that is their claim that myriads of people were accused and went to jail for abusing their kids when mischievous therapists convinced them that their parents had abused them.

There are people out there who claim that, always under the guise of hypnotherapy and drugs, therapists wrongly convinced people that their parents had molested them. Now I am not saying this can’t happen- but the propensity at which is suggested it happened is ridiculous.

Take the case of McMartin preschool. There is a book out on the market by the name of “The Witch Hunt Narrative: Politics, Psychology, and the Sexual Abuse of Children” which asserts, after pouring over the court documents of the longest and most costly case in American legal history, that justice did NOT happen regarding this situation. NO PROSECUTIONS were ever had- and the same was true for Omaha in 87″- when a grand jury disregarded a man named Paul Bonnaci who claimed he had experienced satanic ritual abuse and MKUltra mind control training. However- like the book by Ross E. Cheit who analyzed McMartin- the British documentary “A Conspiracy of Silence”- made for the Discover channel but was not aired after a group of high ranking Republicans derailed the show THE VERY DAY it was suppose to be on, showed that extreme corruption kept the truth about Franklin Credit from coming out into the public. Again- charges were made but NO ONE WENT TO JAIL over the claims of child abuse and sex trafficking.

Further more- three days before McMartin was raised, an excavation team discovered the tunnels and rooms that the children spoke about with regards to McMartin- complete with children’s videos, satanic relics- and the remains of turtles and bunnies that were reported to have been sacrificed in front of the children. This begs the question why it was covered up during the trial- and gives validity to what the children were telling their parents. Also- McMartin was one of SEVEN day cares in the were making charges- one of them a Long Beach Catholic Church. The same result happened with the Presidio, a day care on the government base. Anonymous people generally come forward making claims against therapists- but it has been my experience that this is just a “smoke and mirror” attempt to sway public opinion against actually looking at the situations going on in the 80’s and 90’s. Also- the False Memory people have touted how many people have been sued for including DID patients, and so it makes me wonder how both can be true. It is true that lawsuits were being won against therapists all over the place- so if this is true- how did all of these people end up being convicted by false allegations? Of course- the Memphis Three were found guilty- but just because their convictions were over turned doesn’t mean that the children weren’t ritually murdered. Similar to the Oakland Four in Michigan- who were ALSO ritually murdered.

This side basically asserts that anyone who comes forward about past sexual abuse need to PROVE that it happened- suggesting that children should come forward with their own rape kits essentially. Abused children are often terrified of their abuser(s), but now- in not so many words- the public is being told that allegations of sexual abuse that can’t be proved are ALWAYS FALSE. Considering what the world is watching with Price Andrew- Jimmy Saville, and now Bill Clinton- unless the abused are little versions of Monica Lewinski and keep the clothes that have semen on them- then the abuse can’t be proven and therefore didn’t happen. This is a vast slippery slope- and allows the perpetrators to go free- thus basically re-abusing the victims all over again.

It is my assertion that the American government used the False Memory Foundation as a way to cover up the fact that they were abducting and trafficking children at the same time they were experimenting on them with MKUltra. Preventing anyone from even talking about the abuse that was charged- it convinced the public not only that it was a fallacy but to discredit anything they heard concerning it as a conspiracy theory- regardless of all the facts that surrounded the allegations. Claiming that it was media inspired and pushed by droves of misguided therapists and social workers- it has prevented any real discourse on the subject- until recently. Even Bill Clinton apologized to the American public about it’s MKUltra practices during his presidency- giving even more validation that all of this needs to be re-looked at.

Behind all of the satanic ritual abuse and MKUltra accusations is the fact that our government and many of it’s elite were abducting and trafficking children and making tons of money behind it. Jerry Sandusky said that he was not alone- although allegations that his child charity Second Mile High Club was trafficking kids for the rich was completely forgotten after his conviction. There are simply TOO MANY coincidences for all of this to be totally disregarded- and I have always been taught that when coincidence after coincidence is indicated that it changes into a PATTERN, and where there is smoke there is generally fire. It isn’t a conspiracy theory- it is a collection of facts that the False Memory Foundation has done it’s best to keep anyone from looking at too closely. This isn’t a conspiracy theory but rather the FACTS of our HISTORY during the past three decades. Even now their assertions made in the 90’s are being fought ferociously today on the internet. One has to beg the question WHY?

I also added a couple of TIME article links that talk about the brain and trauma, just because I found them to be of interest.

http://healthland.time.com/2013/04/30/abused-children-may-get-different-form-of-ptsd/

http://healthland.time.com/2013/04/16/how-terror-hijacks-the-brain/

http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2015/01/03/me-me-me-and-my-therapist/

I have been reading the comment section of this article and I would like to take an opportunity to address some of the things that have been presented by those who are asserting that Dissociative Identity Disorder- which can be found in the Diagnostic Statistical Manual IV, or better known as the DSM IV, doesn’t exist. I would like to discuss their generalization of those who are “inflicted” with Dissociative Identity Disorder, once called Multiple Personality Disorder, and discuss some of the ideas that they are presenting. I disagree that any group- like those who suffer from DID, are all the same- as each individual- as it is in any group- are their own distinct person as individuals and that this is as illogical as saying “all people who suffer from depression are the same,” or “all people who have problems with insomnia the same.” There are millions of people who are suffering from dissociative type illnesses, and many times the only thing they have in common is that they all suffered from severe child abuse.

It is being suggested that women are the only ones who achieve DID, and this is also a misconception. It is just that the majority of men who suffer often wind up dead or in jail at a young age. Many times there are NO SUPPORT GROUPS or HELP AVAILABLE for men- and though this condition is slowly changing- it is just in it’s infancy. My parents were extremely abusive, in every way possible- but where my older sister was diagnosed with DID, I am diagnosed with complex PTSD. The difference between the two conditions is that we are both similar except with two distinct differences as I have never “lost time” and I never developed “alternate” personalities. Both, often times, are a result of severe sexual abuse as children- but again, it is not an all or nothing situation. I have bizarre sexual abuse in my past- as does my older sister and our two older siblings. However, what is true for us is not true for everyone- and each of us dealt with our pasts in our own distinct and personal ways. To say that we, even though we had the same father, are all exactly alike is just as illogical as saying that EVERYONE who went through trauma is all exactly alike. DID survivors are incredibly diverse.

One of the arguments in the comments section contains this link to an article online. This is indicative of that which I am speaking about…

http://www.chicagomag.com/Chicago-Magazine/June-1998/Dangerous-Therapy-The-Story-of-Patricia-Burgus-and-Multiple-Personality-Disorder/index.php?cparticle=1&siarticle=0#artanc

It has been highly suggested for the past three decades that anyone and everyone who claims to have DID has it because of hypnosis and bad therapy. They talk about “eatting babies” and “carrying around teddy bears” and “talking baby talk”, and they all claim of being satanically ritually abused and mind controlled. This is also false. In the past decade, it has been my personal experience with survivors, that only a fraction of them claim this. Yes, there are those who do- myself being one of the loudest- but all in all- this is not common for most survivors.

It is also being asserted that DID survivors are all hysterical women who are easily duped and controlled. However, it has been my experience that many- if not every survivor I have met- including myself- has MAJOR problems with trust. Having been abused in such a way that our “Flight or Fight” mechanism is constantly being triggered- pouring tons of the stress making hormone cortisol into our blood streams- we are not only unable to trust- but we are hyper-aware of any and every transgression that would come our way. Any social worker worth their salt will say that an abused child will become hyper-vigilant, as that is how they survive. People with complex PTSD and DID are just extreme examples of this- and to suggest that everyone who claims they have DID are all deluded because of intense hypnotherapy and misleading therapists is just silly. Yes, the False Memory Foundation will spout on and on case after case that they have disregarded and legally attack DID with “experts” who fought the debate of “false memories” like Elizabeth Loftus and Debbie Nathan and have successfully sued insurance companies- but that is primarily how they have made their money. They have sued so many people that it has generated an intense fear in the psychiatric community for three decades now- and finding anyone knowledgeable about DID and complex PTSD is damn near impossible. The False Memory Foundation effectively kept anyone from talking about it for three decades although it is at the foundation of those who developed the whole psychotherapy field in the late 1800’s and early 19th century. It existed WAY BEFORE “Three Faces of Eve” and “Sybil”, however this argument began in the early 90’s- after day care after day care began being accused by the parents of abusing their kids. The False Memory Foundation COINED the phrase “Satanic Panic”, and it was through their diligence that dialogue on this topic of conversation was COMPLETELY HALTED.

It has been asserted that all DID sufferers carry teddy bears and dollies with them- as can be seen by the article above. However- last October Ivory Garden hosted a conference on Trauma and Dissociation where survivors, therapists, and supporters were able to sit in the same venue and listen to experts, all with degrees behind their names, talk about the effects of trauma on the brain and how people develop DID and PTSD, and no one could tell who the other was. 200 people attended- and not one stood out from the other by carrying such things- and, unless they said, you couldn’t distinguish between the three.  The New York Times article “Me, me, me, and my Therapist” is further example that very few survivors who have worked in therapy are huddled up in a corner of their house, hanging onto their dollies. I believe that is why this simple article has gained as much attention as it has. Basically this woman doesn’t fit the peramiters that the False Memory people will assert all survivors of DID are like, and thus the argument to sway the public that EVERYONE who suffers from DID are cookie cutter aspects of each other is being promoted.

I have presented this before- but TIME did an excellent job detailing what happens to a person when they experience trauma and abuse, and the parts of their brain that are used when going through those experiences. It speaks about how the brain works to process those events- and how it differs from the brain when it is at peace. This article can be found at…

http://time.com/3625414/rape-trauma-brain-memory/

o those who care – an article taking about Dissociative Identity Disorder was in the New York Times entitled ” Me,Me,Me and my Therapist”. What is really needed is for people to read and vote on the comments, as well as responding. Please consider taking some time to read the article and vote on the comments.

This is a four hour interview on the Franklin scandal in Omaha NE. It was a great interview- take a listen. I was nervous when it first started but after a while I settled down and the conversation went really well!!

http://oppermanreport.blogspot.com/2015/01/david-shurter-rabbit-hole-satanic.html?m=1