I woke this morning and am really irritated and decide to write why. You have to remember, this is my personal blog and I really need to vent.

People out there are saying that I have no respect for the survivor community- and honestly, they are 110% correct- but let me explain why.

First- let me discuss the murder of Lori King. When she was alive- she was well known as an advocate who would go out of her way to help survivors any way she could. She gave money- time- and spent a great deal of effort to try and help survivors. She had well over 300 “friends” who claimed that they cared about her and loved her- but when she died- LESS THAN A HANDFUL came forward and tried to press authorities to get her murder investigated.

Pat Goodwin- on Ivory Garden- posted a memorial for Lori- but only FOUR could be bothered to post their condolences on the post. In fact- many survivors wrote Pat and complained that she put the memorial up in the first place. So out of 300+ of her so called friends- not one could be bothered to even type something nice in support of Lori- although she had spent her entire life trying to help them.

The worst part about Lori is that she WAS NOT THE ONLY ONE who was at Menagerie/Amber’s house the weekend she was murdered. There was a gathering- where a bunch of them flew in- which makes this conspiracy to keep Lori’s death quiet even more despicable. Their “friend” is murdered- and not ONE of them could do anything other than do their best to keep all of this quiet.

Of course- all the police had to do was get the flight records showing who flew in that weekend. “Amber’s” house is in the middle of nowhere- thus the airport in which they all flew into is small- making this a pretty easy part of the investigation. But with all of the survivors there that weekend- NOT ONE has come forward to the police. (Of course- now that I have pressed the issue- they won’t have too, because the police now are going to go to them).

How does Amber get so many survivors to pledge their allegiance to her murderous ways? She talks “baby talk” to them, sends them stuffed animals, and makes herself out to be their mom, dad, and GOD. (And this is NOT an exaggeration- she actually likes to present herself to survivors as their “god”). So Amber reaches out to their greed and they surround her in droves as a result. I find this sad, pathetic, and incredibly wrong. And yet survivors DEMAND that they are respected by others.

They let their “friend” get murdered and all conspire to stay quiet because the murderer gives them shit- and they get upset if this fact gets pointed out. (Of course- covering up a murder is a CRIME- not a game- and very few of the rest of society find this behavior acceptable, let alone the authorities).

People are upset with me because I have taken the stance on Neil Brick that I have- and are vilifying me for speaking my opinion and what my experiences with this man have been. Yes, it is true- in the beginning I fought for this man and extoled his “virtues” that everyone insisted that he has. I even wrote an article in 2010 talking Neil and his SMART conference up. I came across the article- which Neil has posted on his website- (WITHOUT my permission by the way- despite the fact that he claims otherwise), and was mortified at myself.

In my defense- (which is actually completely unnecessary in my opinion)-at the time I had JUST come in contact with the survivor community and was so overwhelmed and thrilled that there were others out there that I did just about anything I could to fit in and be accepted by these people. But time and experience has a tendency to change people- and yesterday- when I read what I wrote so many years back- I was disgusted with myself- as I could see I was just as deluded then as I find many survivors to be now.

What I have experienced by the majority of people who claim to be DID- (having multiple personality disorder) is that their “disorder” gives them a “get out of responsibility for their actions free card”. THEY aren’t responsible for the awful things they might do- but rather- it is all of their other personalities that did it- and so they can’t be blamed or held responsible for their bad behavior. Kind of like a sick ass version of the “devil made me do it” I guess. (I am sure that some of them are reading this article right now and are telling themselves that they aren’t responsible for letting the murder of Lori King slide because it is their OTHER PERSONALITIES who are responsible).

Why in the world would ANYONE respect this stance? But let’s be clear on one thing- I CERTANILY DON’T.

There are millions of survivors in the world- but where are they? What have ANY of them done to expose and try to stop this atrocity towards children? Other than going to conferences- which are nothing more than social groups- so they can get together, go out to eat, and get to know each other?

I got into all of this activism years ago- not because I wanted justice for myself- but because I realized that this was STILL HAPPENING TO COUNTLESS OTHER CHILDREN. If it had just been about MY abuse- I would have ditched this a long time ago- as nothing will EVER change the past. However, knowing that children are STILL being tortured, raped, and murdered compelled me to try and do something about it.

But to gain survivor’s allegiances-it seems you have to offer them shit (like what we can see with Amber Vollatton)- and since I am poverty stricken this is impossible. Survivors can argue this all they want- but if Amber has shown people ANYTHING- it is the truth of this FACT.

And so no- I don’t respect the a lot of the survivor community- neither for what they stand for nor what they do. And not only do I NOT care about fitting in with the majority of them- I have ABSOLUTELLY NO DESIRE to do so.

Neil Brick will claim that he has helped survivors- but all he does is throw conferences and post other people’s articles on his blog for the most part- and he makes a considerable amount of MONEY hosting his conferences, so this is FAR from altruistic. To survivors- in my opinion- what solely matters to them is THEIR abuse- what THEY endured- and what THEY need.

They could give a shit less that it is happening to others- and that others are ending up dead. You only have to look at their secrecy with regards to the murder of Lori King to see that they really don’t care about others- I mean- the whole situation of keeping her murder quiet and their allegiance to her killer shows that.

The minute you aren’t doing for them- they ditch you- just like they have Lori King. She got murdered and what have they done? Well- Amber is giving them shit so NOW they are supporting and protecting HER, dismissing the fact that it was AMBER who hurt Lori in the first place.

Some who stand against me try to use what I am saying in this article to vilify me- like Neil Brick claiming that the survivor community doesn’t trust me- and then get all indignant when I respond how little I care.

It has been my experience that the majority of survivors ALWAYS HAVE THEIR HANDS OUT- and their hands are ALWAYS EMPTY. And if you get hurt- or worse- murdered- like Lori King, they just pretend you didn’t exist and go on to the next person who will give them what they want. And WHO CARES Amber hurt Lori- it is in the past and now is now and Amber is giving everyone stuffed animals so I guess we are all just supposed to ignore Lori’s murder and move on! All the while these survivors are claiming that THEY are the victims and everyone else is the bad guy. (Unless of course the murderer is offering stuffies and such- which then makes it all acceptable).

In many ways- I believe the survivor community to be cut from the same cloth as our abusers. Survivors can do whatever nasty thing they want and justify it any way they need to be comfortable with themselves- and will attack anyone who says otherwise. They may not be killing and raping kids but the pain and anguish they cause is just as paramount, (as their SILENCE and INACTION are allowing COUNTLESS other children to be hurt)- and just like our abusers- many survivors NEVER take any responsibility for this. They aren’t responsible and if anyone claims they are- they can just vilify that person or worse, claim that their “other personalities” are to blame- which TOTALLY absolves them from any consequences in their minds.

Of course this doesn’t apply to ALL survivors as there are a few of us who are actually TRYING to help- but we are few and far between- and obviously- judging by where society is right now- we haven’t really been able to make much of a difference to expose or stop this. The rest are simply in it for themselves- and have no problem looking away and pretending you don’t exist if you end up getting murdered. What they have done with their “friend” Lori King is a PERFECT example of this.

Like Groucho Marx once said- “I don’t want to part of a club that would have me as a member”, and this ESP. goes for my place in the survivor community. I WON’T remain silent just because this survivor community demands it- I WILL speak out when I see a problem- and if the survivor community doesn’t like it- my reply is two simple words- TOUGH SHIT.

They can crawl up Neil Brick’s ass all they want- they can flock to Amber to get her stuffed animals- and they can expect the murder of Lori King to be brushed under the carpet in order to keep profiting from Amber- but I WILL NOT respect, nor adhere, to this sick and perverted celebration of greed and the need to fit in.

They can claim they are “afraid”, that they are “triggered”, or whatever stupid shit they claim to justify their bad behavior- but I WILL NOT just sit by quietly and let it all go just because I am afraid to rock the boat. I don’t find their behavior acceptable- I don’t think their behavior is justified- and I certainly don’t respect this assertion that they aren’t responsible.

Survivors ARE responsible- and what they are doing- as a whole- is not only allowing murderers to walk free- but is allowing COUNTLESS other children to get hurt. I care as much for survivor’s fear about as much as they care for others pain- which is NONE AT ALL. If they want to hide in their closets with their teddy bears- that is up to them- but I am not going to allow their fear to dictate my actions. And I am CERTAINLY not going to let their greed and selfishness control me.

The difference between many survivors and myself is that I am able and willing to take responsibility for my actions- and, more than that, I am willing to stand- ALONE if necessary- to try and do the RIGHT THING. Maybe that is because I only have ONE PERSONALITY- and I don’t have ANY issues if I come off as an asshole. The truth hurts sometimes- and I have no need to be placated nor do I have any desire to placate others.

Lori and I didn’t even like each other when she was alive- and yet I AM WILLING TO FIGHT FOR JUSTICE FOR HER. And you all can see- by their own actions- that her “friends” can NOT make that same claim- and despite what they believe- the responsibility for their behavior falls on THEM and NO ONE ELSE. THEY are as much to blame as Amber and her group, as they have gone out of their way to protect and shield Lori King’s murderer.

And again- if they don’t like me saying this- I have two words for the lot of them- TOUGH SHIT.

The issue that our government has with this whole MKUltra issue is that, although they are doing their best to make it into a case of conspiracy theory, we have undeniable evidence that it existed.

They say that it ended way before the Church Committee conducted a formal congressional inquiry- but this program was completely secret- SO secret that they did everything they could to destroy evidence of its existence and only got busted because 20,000 papers got misplaced in some tax records showing that it existed. An extraordinary effort went into hiding it, so why would anyone believe they stopped?

Just because they said they did? And everyone is just supposed to believe them?

This whole process in America was already a problem but became amplified after WWII when we brought all those Nazi scientists over from the concentration camps during Operation Paperclip and spirited away Hitler and protected him in Argentina until he died of old age.

Information, by the way- that ONLY came forward because of Putin. You see, the bodies of “Hitler” and “Eva Braun” that were retrieved from the burnt out bunker were sent to Russia after WWII- and it turns out that not only was the body not Hitler- but was, in fact- FEMALE. (And none of the DNA matched either Eva’s nor Hitler’s). So Putin told Obama that either Obama tell the American people or Putin WOULD- and so our FBI came clean on the REAL outcome of the Nazi leader, although they couldn’t have been more quiet in letting the information out.

But the undeniable fact is that this is true and the FBI itself confirms this.

I actually believe that it is because of THESE facts that we now have an argument about whether the concentration camps even existed and what happened there. But proof of what happened in Germany during WWII is PROVEN when you look at its continuation here in America.

The difference is- Germany was THEN and America Is NOW.

A large component to Hitler and this MKUltra playbook is this focus on the occult- which is ALSO vehemently being tried to be placed in the realms of conspiracy – but that is only because the truth of the matter is that the occult is REAL and practicing it WORKED.

That is why it has been around for so long and embraced by so many- and it is the reason why the secrecy of MKUltra has been fought for so voraciously for SO long- because it holds secrets that they don’t want known.

Mind control and the occult go hand in hand in my experience- and extreme trauma- esp at a very young age- provides useful advantages that can be used later on, esp. with you couple it with the magic of the occult.

I have finally begun to look into the story of Sybil- the multiple personality story that happened in the 70’s that supposedly began this “panic” in America in the late 80’s and 90’s. I was a child at the time and dealing with my own horror and so I have never much bothered with it but as an adult- I have always been mystified with the fact that Sybil has been repeatedly equated with a direct link with SRA (satanic ritual abuse) DESPITE the fact that there is absolutely NO MENTION of SRA in the book nor did Sybil or her therapist EVER make any such claims publicly.

But a few days ago, I watched this…

Sybil: A Brilliant Hysteric? | Retro Report | The New York Times

https://youtu.be/wRBZ0Kjisl4

So Sybil and her therapist MET in Omaha? I find this significant- because Sybil supposedly lived in Willow Corners Wisconsin but she was also directly connected to Omaha, Nebraska- and so, knowing what was going on in Omaha, esp. THEN- I now realize that THIS is why she was equated with SRA- because if she was in Omaha- she was SATANICALLY RITUALLY ABUSED.

Multiple personality disorder- then called Dissociative Identity Disorder and now simply referred to as Dissociative Disorders by many clinicians- was the GOAL of the this whole Nazi program philosophy- as they felt that if they could inflict as much trauma as possible on a child, they could break that child apart and then completely control that child into adulthood.

With their propaganda machine- society has had it drilled into our heads that all of this is crazy nonsense and no real discussion otherwise has really ever been able to be had since this all began to break apart in the 70’s and, most notably- the 90’s- but what they have been accused of by MYRIADS of people for MANY DECADES now is real.

It is real- it exists- and it is WORSE than ANYTHING you could imagine. And worst of all- they are doing it on the YOUNGEST of society- because it is only effective if you get them before certain ages. Our government has just taken certain predatory aspects that we all know exist and have existed for a long time, but they have FINE TUNED these and been able to direct these in certain individuals.

I was raised to become a psychopath. That was a basic belief instilled inside my mind as a child through the trauma I was experiencing. It didn’t work with me- but HOW MANY OTHERS are out there who can’t say the same?

When looked at logically- ALL of this makes sense now that people are finally aware of enough of the facts. Trying to make all of this seem crazy will bring suspicion upon you- because to deny what we all now know to be true will either make you out to be an idiot or working for the wrong side.

What do you think happened- bringing all of those Nazi scientists- the WORST of WWII- over to America and hiding Hitler? What do you think our government was up too? Maybe they just all wanted to talk and be friends and have tea? And history shows that they have spent an INORDINATE amount of time, effort, and resources to make this all look like a lie- just as Europe has done- and they are flat out busted for covering it up at the same time America was in the 80’s and 90’s.

The question NOW is not if all of this is true, but rather- what are we, as a society, going to DO about it?

I don’t have an answer to that question, but what I will say is that I have FAITH in the hearts and souls of mankind, because that is where one finds God and the Kingdom of Heaven, and so I KNOW without a doubt that the love and compassion will overcome the obstacles and that those who are responsible are about to pay DEARLY. As far as the rest of us- we are all about to see the naked truth as to how evil all of this has been- and I just hope that each ones of us is able to reach inside and hold tight to the faith that all of this is- VERY SOON- is about to get VERY interesting and that we are at a time of miracles- and that each one of us is able to trust in the hope of the light.

So, in the early 90’s, the CIA group “the false memory syndrome foundation” was formed to deal with the myriad of allegations coming forth that children were being horribly abused in their daycares. Each member of this group were rich WHITE parents who have been accused by their own children of committing these EXACT crimes on their own children.

All except Ralph Underwager- who told Padika magazine how GREAT it was for children to have sex with adults and how society was wrong and that we should all just get over ourselves.

Now this group is the VERY group who coined the phrases “satanic panic” and “false memories”.

Of course this is a game our CIA has played before, giving us the phrase ” conspiracy theorist” for those who didn’t believe the official story about the assassinationn of JFK.

Now this group wants everyone to focus on McMartin preschool- the longest and most costly court case in America at the time- where no one was convicted.

This is proof, they claim, that shows all of these allegations were false- and it worked so well that now the UK is trying to do the SAME thing with Hamstead- a case there now.

This is all fine and good, but McMartin was FAR from alone. In it’s area alone there were SEVEN day-cares, and allegations were coming in from ALL OVER THE NATION- and as far as McMartin, the tunnels the children spoke of were INDISPUTABLY discovered AFTER the trial, along with animal bones and satanic relics that were IN the tunnels.

Longest and most costly trial in the US but no one knew those tunnels existed until afterwards? You all really believe that do you?

Not only that- but these SAME allegations came forth in the UK and Australia as well. The EXACT same allegations at the EXACT same time.

And let me remind everyone that this was BEFORE the internet. So how did SO many people- on THREE different continents, come up with the EXACT SAME “delusion” at the same time without ANY means of contacting each other?

Now the UK government, using HoaxteadResearch.wordpress.com, will bring up events like the Salem Witch Trials as an example of this “hysteria” that took place- but this, just like any other case they present- happened IN ONE ISOLATED AREA and was confined to that area alone.

But what happened in the 90’s happened GLOBALLY, with absolutely no way those coming forward with accusations having the ability to influence others across the nation, let alone in different countries.

And we all now know that the UK UNDENIABLY covered THEIR allegations up. If it was all hysteria- based on lies, why would they waste the time, money, and effort to cover up the allegations?

Even now they don’t deny this but rather are claiming it was in the past so we should all forget about it.

How terribly convenient for them, don’t you think? “Yeah we lied and covered up horrible child abuse but that is in the past so forget about it.”

There WAS a satanic panic, but the only ones panicking at the time were the perpetrating pedophiles. Everyone else was simply concerned about their children. And the perps didn’t want to be discovered, so they went into high gear to cover up and dismiss the allegations, which we can CLEARLY see the history of now.

Of course, this pesky look at the facts seem to distress people like those on Hoaxtead, who only want you to focus on THEM and THEIR stupid shit.

But 1000’s, if not 100,000’s of allegations came forth on THREE continents at the EXACT SAME TIME, but it is THEM who are the liars, and the only ones who are telling the truth is Hoaxtead, the UK government website, and their little group who are doing there best to distract and discredit from these facts and claim everyone else is a liar.

In America this campaign is being run by the Satanic Temple and Doug Mesner/Lucien Greaves- the Charles Manson wanna be who will claim cults don’t exist while OPENLY and BLATANTLY running around acting all cultist and extremely bizarre.

And these are the ONLY groups coming forward to claim everyone who was either abused as a child or had a child who was abused are all either delusional or liars.

But then, I hear that Mesner is claiming Scalia wasn’t discovered because I believe Doug used his “special powers” to protect him. I kid you not.

But let me say he DOES have a special ability, because when he puts on his ridiculous horned hat and whips his dick out for everyone, like he did for the late Westboro minister’s dead mother, i have to say i am amazed at his uncanny ability to make people laugh and become violently sick at the very same time.

It truly IS a gift.

These people are a joke- and they are all liars defending pedophiles and child abusers. Of course, no one is laughing.

History ALWAYS repeats itself- so if you are okay with your children being horrifically abused, constantly sodomized, and disposed of when these child rapists are through, just repeat what happened last time when they covered it up in the 90’s, which has been PROVEN WITHOUT A DOUBT, and look away.

But if you care, you should realize these groups are being used by our government like LAST TIME and that they are trying to spoon feed you a complete load of bullshit, and act accordingly.

These small groups are neither intellectually nor morally superior- they are just being paid to protect those eager to hurt your children and get their rocks off in the process, and supporting and defending them and their actions, in the end, will make you out to be WORSE than them.

So I suggest you all respond appropriately and with thought, because the ONLY thing worse than a group of child killing pedophiles are those who would stand and defend them.

Yesterday I discovered that someone has riffled through my desk and every piece of financial information is missing, both from my desk and my file cabinet.

I don’t have a clue what else they took. It wasn’t if they “robbed” me per say but still, they seem to have taken what they want.

It is funny, because they are so disillusioned in believing it is me they are up against but this is not true.

They believe the only thing real is THEIR power, but this is FAR from the truth.

What they are up against is a solid group of principalities, and something they will NEVER triumph over.

In fact, the truth is that they have already lost- and lost BIG TIME.

However, I just wanted tp put it out there, so that people know what is happening.

My adversaries will say I am crazy and that this doesn’t happen, but if you actually believe those fighting to quiet me are trustworthy or incapable of guile, you live in a MUCH different world than the rest of us.

And again, this has all been a result of my being on the verge of solving the Jacob Wetterling abduction.

This is also directly connected to the 100+ hack attempts that are occurring on my blog DAILY.

Funny, for claiming that I am so crazy, there certainly is a great deal of time and effort being spent trying to shut me down.

I AM IN NO WAY SUICIDAL NOR AM I EVEN DEPRESSED. In fact- although I am broke-my life is BETTER now than it has EVER BEEN. Things are going well. Streeful but good. So if anything SHOULD happen to me- I did NOT do anything to myself. I am in this fight to the end- and honestly- I have already win. I KNOW what is coming for them- and it makes me smile every time I think about it- esp. Knowing that I had a lot to do with it. This life is not what is real- but what is coming for them is more real than the air we breathe. They are fucked- and nothing they do will EVER change that. Not with their games, not with their toys- not with their lies. They are FUCKED- and they just don’t realize how true this is yet. And in the end- THEY are going to suffer beyond comprehension. They might not believe in God and Heaven- but it DOESN’T change the facts of what is. And what it is is that they are totally and compleyely fucked.