Some Thoughts on Satanic Ritual Abuse and the Group of Young People on Amazon that Claim it Isn’t Real

It has recently occurred to me that most of the group I have been arguing with on Amazon are mere children- who have no idea what it was like in the past. Comparing the reporting of childhood abuse of the past to what it is today- they go on and on about those who have been wrongly accused- (although, like the McMartin case in California will show- NOT ONE was convicted) with no idea the prevalence of abuse in the past and how it was NOT reported. Even when it was- nothing could be done about it.

This group will also extoll the virtues of a man boy by the name of Doug Mesner- claiming that satanic worship is nothing but an innocuous belief system that should be respected for it’s right to be free of organized religion- much like what Anton Levey, head of Church of Satan, used to claim. However- this does not take away focus on Col. Michael Aquino- founder of Temple of Set- a very dangerous and brutal group whose focus on satanism was anything but innocuous. Trying to replace focus from Aquino to public exhibitionist Mesner aka Luciean Greaves, this group has done it’s best to try and have the public forget about the government official that people like George Bush Sr. used to run with, not to mention extolling his virtues as a pragmatist.

Our government was INCREDIBLY focused on figuring out the spiritual powers that lay behind mankind- and people like Aquino and other satanists are form a long line of gnostic beliefs that Satan was the hero of the past- encouraging personal freedom and a break from the traditional beliefs that have formed into a focus on God and the church. This wouldn’t be such a problem but this group believes- for the most part- that might is right and that sin is nothing more than experiences that serve no karmic response if one is strong and mighty enough to deter the consequences of behavior.

I have spoken about the events that occurred at Boystown- where young boys were being inducted into a human trafficking and sex ring. The group that I just previously spoke about will say that this never happened- and that things like this DON’T AND CAN’T happen- but the events playing out at Dozier School for Boys in Florida sing a different tune- and show that killings and abductions not only CAN- but HAVE occurred in our nation’s past. Simple denial because you are young and don’t have a clue doesn’t change the facts of the past- and any reasonable older adult can attest that idiocy is the folly of youth- and most of the time, young people don’t have a clue as to what they speak.

Did Satanic Ritual Abuse occur? Yes,under the guise of MKUltra- our governments programs to garner control over the mind and spirit of individuals. Is it STILL occurring? Some say yes, some say no- but it doesn’t mean that events of the past never took place- nor does it negate the harm that was done while it was happening in the past. Gordon- a particularly vicious young troll on Amazon- told me that Franklin Credit and the events surrounding the failed institution, never took place. Generally dolling out insults in order to try and prove it’s point- this group on Amazon voted my older sister’s comments down when she pointed out the events at Dozier School for Boys- where they are now starting to exhume the bodies of murdered boys. Franklin Credit- and the murdering of young boys in Omaha- could be proved as well by digging up Forest Lawn Cemetery. Just because this hasn’t happened yet doesn’t mean that the murdering of young innocents DIDN’T happen- but rather no one has had the gumption to actually go look for proof yet. Just like at Dozier. People knew- but the naysayers- much like I have been confronted with on Amazon- said it could never happen and so it wasn’t looked into until it could NO LONGER BE DENIED.

Our nation’s history points heavily to the fact that SRA is not only possible but probable, and no matter how loud the dissenters, often too young to know any difference, squawk- it doesn’t change the fact that for decades it was not only acceptable to beat your children into submission, but it was encouraged. And thinking that our government took this to the extreme is not only possible but probable. To me it doesn’t matter WHAT public consensus is- as that is often nothing more than uneducated opinions rather than hard facts being presented. I KNOW what I went through as a child- and was present as I watched myriads more of what other children went through- and just because people who don’t know don’t understand doesn’t change the fact of what was.

Satanic ritual abuse is real. Our American governments involvement into the sordid mess is real. And people like Mesner don’t discount the history of people like Michael Aquino. Try as they might- their words and opinions will never change what was. It might influence public opinion, but then many, if not most, will go on and on about how the public are sheep and will believe what is comfortable for them rather than what is true. For me- this doesn’t negate the abuse I went through- and is just more of the same that allowed these atrocities to occur in the first place. This group of young dissenters on Amazon think they are stopping a witch hunt- when really all they are doing is discrediting the myriads of people who claim their history is ripe with this sort of abuse. Struggling to defend the status quo- it has been my experience that this group defends abusers- and considering that some of them are in league with people such as Doug Mesner, it makes me wonder what their true agenda is. Dozier School for Boys had one- and now that the bodies are being exhumed- we all know what it was. Doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see the results of such denial.

Some Thoughts on the Bohemian Grove

Doug Mesner aka satanist Lucien Greaves, will go on and on about satanism- much like this new article on his site, http://www.dysgenics.com/2014/04/17/abu-hamza-trial-begins-al-qaeda-operatives-used-sra-lies-to-incite-hatred/
but what is interesting is that the problem with Bohemian Grove is not the satanism that is practiced there but rather it is a place where national and social policy is determined by rich and powerful men. Going against every law and treaty we have in this nation- I find it interesting that Mesner will throw in comments about al qaeda and satanism- anything to feed the public his constant supply of hatoraid.

Most will agree that human trafficking exists, except for those few who follow Mesner/Greaves. Most will also agree that satanism and satanic practices are not normal- nor are they what most would adhere too- except the young group that follows Mesner/Greaves. This group will do anything it can to detract from the real issues and make their attempt to normalize satanism to be on the forefront.

Connecting me with Paul Bonnaci when I have stood against him for so long is another attempt at smearing the facts. And yes- I do believe that Walt Carleson and Mark Anderson were scape goats- taking the blame off of MUCH LARGER FISH in the whole child trafficking issue.

This group of young satanists don’t know anything but their need for abhorrent and abrasive lifestyles. Their love for Satan- and all things born in Hell- is undeniable.

Stories from Pedophile Hollywood

http://defamer.gawker.com/the-sad-truths-behind-the-l-a-party-scene-that-took-do-1567145397?utm_campaign=socialflow_gawker_facebook&utm_source=gawker_facebook&utm_medium=socialflow

http://defamer.gawker.com/bryan-singers-obsession-with-barely-legal-boys-was-an-o-1564367291?utm_campaign=socialflow_gawker_facebook&utm_source=gawker_facebook&utm_medium=socialflow

Gordon on Amazon Says Pedophilia is not a Crime- Claiming it is Okay

http://www.amazon.com/review/R24FTPKYKOHZ24/ref=cm_cr_rev_detup_redir?_encoding=UTF8&asin=B008KOYCFC&cdForum=FxN5B0FYGMQ32M&cdPage=42&cdThread=TxB3XGRGKBEHIB&newContentID=Mx10EOELNJTUEQH&store=digital-text#Mx10EOELNJTUEQH

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pedophilia
Pedophilia – Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
en.wikipedia.org

http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/813669

http://www.dsm5.org/Documents/Paraphilic%20Disorders%20Fact%20Sheet.pdf

http://www.dsm5.org/Documents/13-67-DSM-Correction-103113.pdf

and people wonder why I call them the pedophile protection squad. Lusting after children is not a sexual orientation but rather a serious dysfunction- and most therapists dont believe that pedophiles are curable. Gordon makes a perfect example of someone who fights for the right to lust after kids.

The Real Problem With Survivor Communities

I have been involved with survivor communities for some time now- and it is my estimation that the False Memory group is the least of their problems. The biggest problem in the survivor community is that you have boards and groups like Ivory Garden, Infinite Minds, SMART, and Survivorship all trying to be number one so that they can profit off the victims of abuse. And people who have been abused are so eager to fit in that they do just about anything to be accepted.

I have seen Neil Brick line his wallet time after time after every SMART conference and then claim how he does what he does all out of the goodness of his heart. Felicity Lee- who promotes the worst type of behavior on her board and encourages her members to act like little children so she can reprimand them through the threat of banning them from the group is doing the same with her conference she is trying to set up in October- encouraging members to send in 100.00 every month to her pay pal account so she can “help them” buy plane tickets and afford the rooms that she has booked for her conference. Who needs perps when you have this type of behavior in the community itself? The False Memory Foundation is correct when it speaks about there being a bunch of con artists at the head of each of the groups. They are all looking to be the one and are ready and willing to scrap the others in order to keep profiting from their activities. This is one of the main reasons why I removed myself from this insidious group of people.

These groups- all vying for the money and glory of being the one- will constantly trash each other- so much so that they seem to be falling to the wayside. Brick gets involved with Survivorship and due to the constant bickering ends up dissolving the group that was under his non for profit umbrella. Felicity aka Pat Goodwin is COMPLETELY in charge with her non for profit and is basically the only one who can write checks off of the account- which I have seen her do time and time again. All of these people want to put money in their pockets and they will trash anyone who gets in the way of their greed.

I don’t like con artists- and the survivor community is full of them. Probably because survivors make easy targets. I stopped arguing with the False Memory Foundation because much of what they say- despite the hateful and adversarial way they present themselves- is correct on many levels. In the survivor community it is about promoting bad behavior and keeping people off balance and ill because it keeps the coffers full. People who become healed- who have no need for “littles” any longer- don’t need to have such groups and therefore stop shelling out their money for the groups.

I,despite what my stepmother and her idiot children assert, am not a con artist. I find it funny that they ended up with all the money and therefore want to make it out to be about money for everyone else- when it is obvious that is what they live for and it is THEIR example of behavior that promotes such crap. Jumping on the side of anyone who is against me- they have formed allegiance with Felicity Lee aka Pat Goodwin showing that they are, like the False Memory Foundation asserts- for themselves with no allegiance to anyone but themselves.

I am tired of the whole situation myself. Which is why I have removed myself from the whole playing field. Being used in any way to further themselves is not my style- and I have grown weary of it. But I felt I couldn’t leave without saying something to warn those who will be duped out of their money for reasons that have nothing to do with promoting good mental health. If you need to pretend to be a “little” in order to garner attention- then by all means pump your money to these people. As they say- fools and their money are soon parted. However- if you are actually trying to get healthy and be a productive person in society-my advice would be to steer clear of these groups. They will seek to get your money and when you have nothing more to offer them personally- they will leave you high and dry- or worse- they will join forces with the very people who mean you harm.

Just saying.

My EX roommate Found a New Place to Live

With Felicity Lee. May they both find the peace and prosperity they are both seeking in life.

Wonder Why Rich and Powerful Pedophiles Get Away With Having Sex with Kids

You only need to read the comments under the TMZ article to see why this happens. Just like the False Memory PP Squad- naming names gets equated with bringing the Salem Witch Trials back. If they were poor smucks- no one would care- but when you say that the rich and powerful are involved with pedophile rings- the dander rises with everyone who wants to BE rich and powerful and suddenly the victims of abuse are called liars- looking for money and attention.

This world is basically sick- and the people in it are heartless bastards who aren’t worth the air they breathe. Pedophile rings ARE run by the rich and powerful many times- and they are the ones who can afford to influence and buy the opinions around them. And funny- all of the accused- by me in my life- and Michael Egan in his life- are ALL MEN. WHEN WERE ANY MEN CALLED WITCHES IN THE SALEM WITCH TRIALS? There weren’t – they were all midwives and female. So equating the two is ridiculous.

http://www.tmz.com/2014/04/21/michael-egan-press-conference-hollywood-sex-ring-lawsuit-bryan-singer/1/#comments-anchor

Removing Myself From the Victim Communities

It has become my impression that those who are in the SRA communities and the Targeted Individual community- who my sis calls the Totally Insane community- are composed of a group of people who seem to want to wear their victimization as some sort of badge of honor- and I have grown weary of this practice. I am not defined by my abuse in my past- and after what I have just experienced with an ex roommate- I highly doubt that all of these nobodies are being inundated with abuse from our government. These communities seem to be very broken- and I can’t live my life at the mercy of these groups.

What is common- which is what Renata Murray and “Bad Baby” have shown me- (two talkshoe hosts on the internet)- is that there are a lot of people who will go on and on about God and Christianity- but even though they can talk the talk- they can’t walk the walk. They are the first to turn on you at the first disagreement- and this is what I have found with most “christian’s” out there- that they are able to judge because they see themselves on the side of God. They are really no different than the Satanists who go on and on about the virtues of mankind in contrast to God- they are the first to attack and the first to claim victim when things don’t go their way.

My life, now that I have separated myself away from constant daily derision, has grown to be more full and more enlightened, and I have realized that I need to start living my life for myself and not for the benefit of others. No longer am I going to stand on the field taking hits for those who are not interested in coming out of the peanut galleries. The world is the way it is because most people don’t want to get involved in any way that doesn’t directly benefit them- and I just think there is more to life than this BS. Or, like the uneducated waitress who attacked my decision to be baptized showed me- most just think they should be able to serve their hateoraid to whomever they please and that people should stand abashed with their ugly derision. Lots of people suck- that is the truth- and many aren’t worth the air they breathe- however far they set themselves above the rest.

My life is going to become much more simple. I will reach out to the people I think I can help- and leave the rest for someone else. I will keep people in my prayers- but having them directly involved in my life is a no go. All in all- I have decided to come like the rest of the masses.

I once equated my situation with a person who escapes a warehouse of torture and pain. Once out on the road- do you decide to keep going or do you decide to go back in and try to help others- thinking that if you got out- perhaps you can help others do the same. For years I figured the latter was correct, but now I have decided that perhaps just heading out myself might be a better decision. You can’t save a drowning person, and many who find themselves in these waters only seek to garner attention from their victimization. Life is simply too short. I would rather be happy than some sort of hero- as no one appreciates those types of people anyway. Best to live my life for myself and let the cards fall as they may for others. We are all responsible for what we do- and no amount of perceived victimization will change that.

And that is all I wanted to say today.

Because of Him

Last night I was baptized and today- this Easter- I accept the gift of the Holy Spirit. Easter was my mother’s favorite holiday and now it has also become mine. Thanks Elder Tibbitts and Brother McDonald for sticking with me these past five months and struggling with me as I struggled to truly embrace the word and world of God!

A New Perspective Regarding the Survivor Community and the Targeted Individual Community

For years I have done what I could to help both communities. I have endured death threats, ridicule, stalking, attacks, and in the end- I sacrificed my 20 year relationship over situations I felt I had a need by God to protect. My friends, my family- and those who actually know me have all asked why I would make such choices and I guess I was being directed by ego- saying that it was my lot to try and defend this group of people.

However, lately I have had it pointed out to me that I have done all that I could for years now- sacrificing most of what I held most dear, and yet this whole GoFundMe campaign has shown people exactly where I really stand in the community. It isn’t just that no one has really helped (although there have been a few and they are greatly appreciated), but I have gotten somewhat rude comments as a result, demeaning me for asking in my hour of need. I have sacrificed so much for two groups of people who can not nor do not feel the same towards me. I realize that my sacrifices have been meaningless, and that perhaps it was simply ego that forced me to feel the need to fight for such a group of people.

As such- I am backing away from both groups. Will Satanic ritual abuse and it’s connections with human trafficking and MKUltra ever be revealed? Only if it is for five minutes and doesn’t upset the regularly scheduled programing on tv. Quite frankly- I have been fighting to expose things that most people don’t give two cents about. We have designed a world where everyone wants saved but no one wants to help anyone else. When you ask for help- people get ignored- or worse- criticized for their efforts. I’m not trying to whine- but simply pointing out the facts of the matter. The truth is that mankind could not care less for the rest of mankind- and I am no longer going against the tide to fight a battle that can neither be won- nor does anyone care about in the first place.

It is true- being cold, hard, and unyielding is mankind’s true nature- and Social Darwinism it truer today than when it first began. People don’t care about the world around them unless it directly affects them- and then it only matters as so much as their needs get met. This is harsh- but true. The world is the way it is because we are the way we are- flat out. It isn’t magic- it isn’t designed by God- we live in a cold harsh world because, quite frankly- very few of us care enough to make it out any other way.

I have to say thanks for the emails that I have recieved on my GoFundMe account- you helped me open my eyes when so many others tried and failed. Now I understand- and for those I have abandoned on my crusade to do good- I owe you a deep apology and must admit that you were all right- it wasn’t worth it and it didn’t do any good. I know that now, and more than that- I understand now. I am sorry I didn’t listen for all these years.