Having been involved with all of this all my life, but heavily the past seven years, I have had to shift my paradigm of thinking many times as the facts have presented themselves. The hardest thing about all of this is that many involved have strong allegiances to those who have presented themselves as leaders in the past with all of this, and I am one who has no interest in offering myself to people I don’t like and don’t trust.
I had a peer of mine tell someone that I had betrayed him over and over by speaking my mind about John DeCamp, as if doing so was somehow a personal affront to him. The man has only done his best to get involved and screw with every investigation he has ever gotten involved with, and that is not just Franklin- but also the Oklahoma City bombing and the Columbine shooting to name a couple more. DeCamp was CIA- and ONCE CIA ALWAYS CIA. He is nothing but a gatekeeper for the things that transpired here in Omaha- him and his Noreen Gosch/Paul Bonnaci tales that, even on the surface, seem ridiculous. The man knows how to manipulate- he is a lawyer for God’s sake, and the fact that his biggest client in his career, one Aleisha Owen- hates him and tells people how he screwed her- I think I will give more credence to his clients rather than his friends. The eight huge boxes of info on the Columbine shooting was so screwed up that it showed me that the man is disorganized to the point of chaos, or he didn’t want anyone- such as Donna Taylor, the mother of shooting victim Mark Taylor, reading or understanding just what transpired with the investigation. Of course= that is like all the other investigations he has involved himself in. Am I going to let a colleague put a gag on me and keep me from speaking the truth? No. As I have said earlier- I am into cracking this case, not making friends.
The same holds true for Neil Brick. I have fought for and defended this man for three years now- not because we liked each other but because I felt like I was fighting for the survivor movement, when I should have been tending to my own instead. I have been sent on wild goose chases in the form of Doug Mesner and have found Brick to be unkind, ungrateful, and a general all around asshole. However, some believe, since we all have the same history of abuse that I should follow this narcissist that gives egocentricity a new level without saying any misgivings I may have because it “hurts the survivor movement” to do so. This makes no sense to me- and the fact that I have learned about the Thom White case and yet have been sent all over the web to fight a dweeb like Mesner for Brick- it makes me wonder what is behind Brick and his desire to control the survivor community? I don’t trust the little Nazi- who oppresses and abuses anyone he feels it necessary to oppress and abuse. Victims have a tendency not to fight back and run with their tales between their legs. I will never do this.
I am working with some incredible people in my own area who are helping with to expose and stop this problem we have with child trafficking. Nick Bryant- being from New York City- really has no idea the day to day changes that have been occurring in Omaha- even though he claims to be an expert on all things Franklin. Reminded of how self-satisfied Bryant is by people who have met and dealt with him personally, it occurred to me that it doesn’t really matter if Brick decides to throw his hat in with Bryant- as neither have any real bearing on what is going on here- and the things that are being talked about. I didn’t get in this to lead survivors, or defend anyone else’s story but my own- and that is that my dad and my family were-(are) involved with child abductions and child trafficking and I want this to come out so that people can understand what is happening in such a way that we can all enforce a change to stop it. If there are people out there who don’t like me- so what?! You can’t please all the people all the time, and I honestly have no intention of pleasing anyone just to be liked and fit in. If the survivor community turns because of my misgivings with Neil Brick based on my personal experiences with him- so be it. If those that I have helped are angry because I won’t shut my mouth about John DeCamp, Noreen Gosch, and Paul Bonnaci- then so be it. Trying to get me to promise never to say a disparaging word about these people when they are guilty of so much is overstepping boundaries anyway- and I will not allow myself to be gagged when the facts are so blatantly in people’s faces. I know this sounds harsh- but I don’t OWE anyone in this ANYTHING, just because a group of people think I do. I would prefer to be real and stand on my own than blow sunshine up my behind so that I can fit in with a group of people not worth fitting into. I HAVE a community of friends and loved ones- I don’t need to find such with a group of strangers I know very little about. I am in this to get an investigation- not to find friends and become popular. Those concerned about such things, in my opinion, need to evolve from grade school and wake up to the real world.
So yeah, I am in the process of taking a bunch of heat and redefining my parameters of what I am going to be involved with. I will STILL keep speaking my truth- and those who don’t appreciate it don’t have to listen- but considering my blog numbers and such- people ARE listening, and they are starting to take an interest. That is what I need- so that eventually- I can free myself from all of this. THAT I DO owe- myself.